Pottery

"I wonder if your father would notice if I were to dig a hole in the back yard for a raku kiln?" I glanced at my son as we were driving home.  He looked a me with a puzzled expression
   "kill"? 
   "No, kiln.  The 'N' is silent." I smiled. "You don't know what raku means, either, do you?"
   "That depends...are there like five letters in that word that are silent, too?"

The Perfect Time to Write

MUSE

July column for The Greater Canton Writers’ Guild Newsletter

            Yesterday was a great day for writing, but before I could begin, I wanted to get the laundry started and put some things away. After that was done I could really devote some time to that story I had started in my head.  Then I thought perhaps I could work better if I straightened the house first and vacuumed. At that point I started thinking maybe if I started dinner early, I could sit down for the rest of the afternoon at the computer with a cup of tea.. The dogs needed out and then on my way back in I picked up the mail and had to sit down to write out a few bills, sort the rest of the mail, and do some shredding. Soon I found myself sorting and folding laundry.  After the dinner dishes were done I ended up doing some much needed ironing.  By 9 pm my favorite show was on and by ten that evening I wondered where the day went. Wow.

            Do you ever find yourself in situations like this? Perhaps you find yourself in other obligatory meetings, running too many errands, constantly over-scheduled and at the beck-and-call of family members and well-meaning acquaintances. I get it.  But I’ve got to tell you something I’ve learned (unfortunately) from experience: It is possible to lose yourself in obligations and relationships to people who 1: don’t get you and, 2: don’t care.  And once lost, it can take years to find yourself again and regain your voice.

            There is no perfect time to write. You either write in the midst of your life as it is happening, because it is happening or in spite of it happening around you, or you don’t write at all. You either make the time or you don’t.  It’s your call.

            But if you wait – it’s not going to happen and sometimes hard decisions need to be made. I urge you to seek out relationships with other writers – people who get you, people who encourage your writing. Maybe, if you find your life in a turmoil, with needy people surrounding you all clamoring for attention, you especially then, need to carve out some time just for yourself to write. You do this for your sanity.

We Need Each Other

MUSE

June column for The Greater Canton Writers’ Guild Newsletter

We need each other. The act of writing is a solitary endeavor and in that process we have a tendency to cut ourselves off from the world in order to pursue that which drives us. Do we have support networks at home? Some of us may but if I may hazard a guess, I would say that they are tentative at best if your spouse or significant other is not a writer or another creative. No one understands a writer like another writer. To others around us we may seem a little “off” marching to our own drummer..  But that’s okay, for we’re all weird in our own way here at the Guild.  Really.  This is your support network. Right here.

No matter our different personalities, backgrounds, genres or whether we’re writing novels, short stories or poetry, we all have one thing in common: the written word. And that unifies us.  There’s a sense of kindred spirits when we all come together and many, many times after our meetings, I come home energized and on a creative high simply by being with other writers and sharing ideas. You understand that. Most people would have no clue about creative highs. Writers’ think differently and that sets us apart from the rest of the people in our lives.  Because of that, being different in our own spheres, we do need each other for support.   Many, months ago I was told that the Guild didn't meet often enough.   Critique night meetings are a definite plus.  There’s no program on those nights, instead it is face to face writing, and talking about your writing.  It’s a great support system.  This is where you will get feedback on your writing and where we help each other.  Hope to see you all there this month!

Happy writing.

Eureka!
I finally figured out why I detest that trite saying "I may not know anything about art but I know what I like."  A few weeks ago I was with my parents as they went to an art exhibit. And then my dad had to say that. I cringed. The person who uses that phrase proudly admits that they don't know anything about art; they are claiming ignorance.  And then in the very same breath, they are announcing to the world that in their ignorance, they like what they're seeing.  Please...never, ever make a value judgement on something while at the same time tell a person you don't know enough to make that very judgement.

I'm glad I got that cleared up in my head.

Writing is a lot like exercising - something I feel good about once it is done, but finding the time to do it is another story.  I’m a procrastinator and the more anxiety I feel toward my writing, the more I tend to put it off. Everything else comes first: the laundry, errands, cooking. And after all that I end up exhausted and the last thing I want to do is exercise or write. I’ve discovered something: there is no perfect time to write and if I wait until that time presents itself I’ll never get anything done. Sometimes we have to make choices about how we use our time. Do we watch television or chat on the phone or do we sit down and work on something that’s been problematic for us within our writing? I’m sure I can find all kinds of excuses to not write, but the need to write is still there, the characters gnawing away inside my head, all trying to get out at once. Yes, I’m fairly certain that I need to write more than I need to watch tv.  My mother always called that inner urge to create a “fire in the belly”.

Marion Roach Smith, author of The Memoir Project, has suggested that rather than write in bed (of which I am guilty), that the writer be “hospitable” to their writing, meaning that one makes an appointment, a set time to sit down every day at a table or computer and write free of distractions

Writing in Layers

Exuberance in Blues      

 in acrylics and fabric  18" x 24"  (not finished, I'm just getting started here.)

When I paint, I do the entire canvas first with an undercoated background, let it dry, then go back over it with an enlarged drawing, adding lines, painting the composition, then finally adding details.  That's me painting in layers.  I also have the same tendency when I write.

And that tendency is to be a "meat and potatoes" writer.  I can tell you a great skeleton story: this is what happens, why it happens and this is how it ends - but that's not much of a story, is it?  The real story comes out in the details and the finesse in which it is told.  The reader wants to really be there in the story with real characters, not paper cut outs.  And the writer also needs to give his characters LIFE, with all its foibles.  Set the scene - hear the crunch of the dry grasses as they are walked upon, the feel of the hot breeze upon one's face.  Uncertainty and fear.  How does that physically feel?

Usually after I beat a story to death (by continually gong back over it ad nauseum, filling in more details each time), I quickly lose interest in it.  This is truly the "work" part of writing.  Don't let anyone fool you; writing - the constant editing and revising - is hard work, just as perspective, drawing and graphing is the work part of art.  Creativity carried out to its end is a lesson in perseverance and commitment.

The Long Road

My father had been in the hospital during Thanksgiving with an infection and once released, was on home care.  I was trained by the nurses to change his IV bag, tubes, and to reset his digital pump daily.  Hence, the reason I've not been here for a while with managing two households.  I've been a little busy. But the six weeks are up today and we're all celebrating - my parents are especially since they've been practically housebound for that entire time.  But to be honest about it, I'm going to miss the drive from the southernmost end of Plain township to  Green.  every day.  I had a 20 minute drive - but I made it in 15 minutes on New Year's - no traffic! 

The 'back way' consisted of omitting Cleveland avenue in favor of Whipple North to Shuffel,  Where I ended up was Aultman Avenue, State Street, then Boston Avenue. I love Boston Avenue.  That's where the above picture was taken shortly before Christmas.  The flatness of the land around Boston is, for me, wonderfully reflective of the farmland where I once lived when I taught in Arkansas.  That's a different story. For someone whose has half her family coming from Ireland via West Virginia, it's a little ironic that I found solace in the flatness of the land, but there was a peacefulness about it.  I also found some introspection and inspiration. 

No doubt those seeds sown during this time will eventually find their way to the surface when the time is right.  Maybe they will appear in a painting or possibly a poem.  The possibilities are endless. 

Our First Christmas Tree

 This being the month of December, I should probably tell you a Christmas Story, albeit not a typical one.  This was written in 2007-ish when I first started at the writers' guild.  This is a story of a newlywed couple's first outing together to get their Christmas tree, complete with disastrous results.    In retrospect, I really should have taken a picture of every Christmas tree we've had since.  Some have filled half the living room

.  Think Clark Griswold's over-sized tree.  The tree in this picture is undersized and tame in relation to previous years.  I have to keep telling him "Less is More".  He never believes me.

                                Our First Christmas Tree

                                                                        1989

My husband, Mark, and I were still newlyweds when I became pregnant with our first child, and by December of that year I was four months pregnant and very noticeable.  One cold and wintry day a week before Christmas we traveled an hour away to a tree farm to buy our first Christmas tree.  I was so excited since this was going to be my first real tree and I was anticipating the traditions we would start as a family.  Because it was so late in the season there were many trees missing from the tree farm and a snow storm the previous day covered all the ruts and stumps that were in the field.  My mother-in-law, bless her heart, lent me the maternity coat she had worn with all her spring babies and I could hardly refuse her generous offer.  This coat was from the 1950’s, hung down to my ankles, and was a color that would soon come to be known as “harvest gold” on all 1970’s era appliances.  Together with the multi-colored scarf Mark had lovingly wound around my face, neck and head that day, I felt like an immigrant.

            As soon as we arrived at the tree farm I saw the perfect tree right in front of our parked car.

             “Right there, Mark, it’s gorgeous!” I excitedly shouted, “Get it!”.  He turned and gave me a look that I could only interpret as meaning “Are you kidding me?  We only just arrived.”   That would have been way too easy.  Mark wanted to search; he enjoyed the hunt, and walked joyfully through the rows, up the hills, and around the gullies with his tree saw, a rope, and a grin on his face.  He was reliving his childhood.  That left me to follow him, struggling with a large stomach, my head and face wrapped like a mummy, and a coat that hung down to my ankles in the freezing wind.  Because the snow was blowing hard and strong that day, every four or five steps saw me up to my knees in every root hole and gully on that property.

            I thanked God when Mark finally found his perfect tree. At that point I didn’t care what it looked like and I wasn’t going to argue about it.  I was pregnant, cranky, and tired from meandering all afternoon around that tree farm.  What I had anticipated as an idyllic afternoon turned into an out-of-body experience; I desperately wished I wasn’t there.

            The tree was cut and strapped to the top of the car and we left for the hour drive on the freeway not knowing that we had to cover the tree to protect it.    By the time we arrived home, our once green tree had turned dirty gray.   It was covered with road salt.

            “What happened?” I cried as I looked at the tree.  There was no way I was going to let Mark put that filthy gray tree in our apartment.  He had better do something and he’d better do it fast.  It was freezing outside.  I looked at my husband for a solution.  He felt the pressure.

             “I’m thinking” Mark said as he surveyed his prize.   He walked around the tree, let out a big sigh, then sent me into the apartment to thaw while he hosed the tree down in twenty-three degree weather.  How else was he going to clean it?  Unsurprisingly, the tree completely froze.  It stood there in shock, covered head to trunk with ice crystals, glittering in the last of the day’s light and softly tinkling like wind chimes in the biting wind.   The tree was glorious in the fading light. It was a shame we had to bring it in to the warmth after that. There was nothing to do but bring it in the kitchen, put papers under it, and leave it to melt.  And it did.  The tree snapped, crackled, and dripped all night long.

            As I sat on the couch listening to our first Christmas tree melting, I vowed never to cut another living tree.  I shook my head.  “I’m going  to survive this” I  silently told myself.  “Next year will be different”.   And indeed, it was.                                                                                                                                

Seduced by a bad idea

Seduced by a Bad Idea

I didn’t see it coming

She snuck up from behind

Temptation so great

I was out of my mind.

She tapped on my shoulder

And tugged at my heart

I should have seen it coming:

bad news from the start.

Persistent, petite, and smiling,

She wouldn’t let it rest

And the way she talked

She made perfect sense.

She insisted that all would be well,

My decision I wouldn’t regret

I had to have been touched in the head

Indeed, this no one would soon forget.

She pushed all the right buttons

I should have declined

But she still seemed to be

a good idea at the time.

                                                                           Artist/Author's note: the drawing came first, with the title, then the  poem came to be.  This picture was taken out of my sketch book, and only now I'm considering painting this in oils.  I think I've decided I don't like acrylics since I'm more of a planner.

The Sound of our Words

   Writers take pen in hand and write on paper - or they key their words on a computer screen.  Then the words are there in black and white right where they belong.  But sometimes we as writers forget the realm of words intersects our daily lives.  Words kept on paper alone lead a solitary existence when they are meant to be spoken and brought to life.

   Too often we focus on punctuation and the placement of periods in our writing - picayune stuff - when we need to focus on the life of the writing.  Two things jump out at me when thinking about this.

ONE: I was helping to judge a poetry contest this past summer and the main judge was (rightly) being critical of form and eliminating poetry that wasn't up to snuff.  At one point there was a disagreement about a piece of writing and I suggested that since the winning entry was to be read out loud that we read the final selections aloud and find out how they sounded when spoken. We forget sometimes that our ears will also judge.  What looks good on paper sometimes just doesn't make the grade when spoken.

TWO: I recently shared one of my more recent poems with a poet friend ( who absolutely adores her thesaurus) and being helpful, she suggested that since my poem was "ethereal" (her word, of course), I should substitute the word 'clothed' for 'attired'.  I thoughtfully considered that, but in the end decided to use the common word I originally had.  In my opinion, the spoken word 'attired' sounded too much like 'tired' and made me think 'worn out and exhausted'.  It also has a hard sound to it. Most often words with T's, D's and K's, when spoken, have harder sounds to them.  The softer sounding words have W's, H's, L's, TH's, R's, and SH's.

   When you look up a word in the thesaurus to make creative choices and substitute ordinary words (that we all use) for others, one must also need to consider the sound of those words when spoken.  I chose to stick with my softer sounding word choice 'clothed' because I felt it was a better fit.

                  Falling Gold

                 The North wind has come calling

                 Trees nod their acquiescence

                 Leaves bristle on Pointe

                Awaiting their dances.

               Caught up in the whirlwind

               Limbs bend and bow            

               Leaves rustle with the wind

               Needing to go.

              One by one

              For each whose time has come                                     

              To jump, dance and pirouette                     

              Under the setting sun.

              Clothed in gilded colors

              They tumble, turn, and fly

              Sparkling, glistening, filtering sunlight

              Dancing in the crisp blue sky.

             Winds buffet, trees billow

             Falling gold: amber skies

             Gathered by the whirlwind

             Dancing their last goodbyes.

                                                         ~Mela Saylor

National Novel Writing Month

November is National Novel Writing Month, commonly called NaNoWriMo by its participants. This is a month dedicated to writing a novel – 50,000 words. As this is gearing up, thousands of writers are getting ready by laying out their stories in their heads and gathering reams of paper and ink for their computers.  And most of the women who are mothers and wives, are trying to get done what they can possibly do ahead of time. 

The premise of this is to get your entire story laid out in writing – just get everything that comes into your head on paper.  Editing is not allowed.  I believe March is when rewrites are encouraged.  The goal is to write 50k words in one month. That comes to around 1700 words a day. Not a problem if one is a prolific writer.  My inner editor is rebellious and she’s always on duty. More often than not I fight with her when I try to write. For every sentence I write, she wants to rewrite it. I often see my pen refusing to touch down on paper for fear of not using the right word, and auto-correcting when I do.  Is that a neurosis?

I attempted to do Nanowrimo several years ago.  I started our like gangbusters raking up leaves and throwing down words, but sadly, I didn’t make it past day two. Why? It was November, silly. Let’s see, two teenage boys, a yard filled with trees and a high-maintenance husband. What could go wrong?  I couldn’t delegate a darn thing.  And let’s not forget Thanksgiving also falls during this time frame. 

When I originally described this national event to a writer friend, she was silent trying to digest this new information. I could hear her thinking on the other end of the telephone. She finally spoke up “No editing allowed?”

“Nope – just continuous writing, getting everything out and on paper”

“so, what you’re telling me is they just want you to verbally ’throw up on paper’ that first month?

            “Pretty much.”

            “huh.”

            This must be a difficult concept for a precise writer. Her strong suit is Haiku, the short-hand of poetry. 

So this year I will attempt to do my own month of intense writing - and it won’t be around the holiday season.  I’m thinking either February or March when the winds are blowing and I’m relegated to staying inside the house and waiting out the cold weather on my couch for the first signs of Spring, the buds, the birds, and the blooms, to come around.

I had been looking for this painting for a while - just to look at the colors.  This was painted in 1987 and is a whopping 24" x 36".

I've been 'stuck' for the last few months with a painting.  I like the design but I don't care for the colors I used - even though they were meant to be underpainting.  I've finally figured that my problem is that I've been trying to be someone I'm not - artistically speaking.  Plus I've been using acrylics.  I'm going back to oils.